| 483 |
[04 Dec 2009|08:46pm] |
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i'm crippled with feelings of despair and agony.
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| 482 |
[30 Nov 2009|09:04am] |
i fucking detest passive-aggressive roommates.
i hate this house.
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| 481 |
[29 Nov 2009|03:35am] |
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life is incredibly strange. the more i'm starting to think. thinking is dangerous. i wish i knew how to take control of the moment and just go with it. but i think i already do this enough as it is. i don't know how... but i think i'm living wrong. does that make sense? all these turns of events, something is nagging at me: jenny, this is not okay. something is wrong. but i don't know what it. there is just this feeling of discomfort and loneliness. i want to reach out to someone and hold their hand and just rest my head on their shoulder and feel at ease. that i belong and i'm not precariously careening out of control. does this make sense? god, what the hell.
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| 480 |
[21 Nov 2009|06:27pm] |
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"nothing tastes as good as skinny feels"
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| 479 |
[20 Nov 2009|05:04pm] |
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i'm so hungry :/
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| 478 |
[19 Nov 2009|06:06pm] |
my fear of food is returning again.
and i just went grocery shopping.
:sigh:
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| 477 |
[16 Nov 2009|09:19pm] |
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i was really banking on getting that travel fellowship to return to israel for the duration of winter break. i want to be anywhere but here (and los angeles). maybe this time, i could have been with people i love and who love me for the holidays and actually enjoy myself. no, instead i will be in boston, alone. doing nothing but working probably. this situation is incredibly depressing. it also got me thinking that i don't have any substantial connections in life.
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| 476 |
[16 Nov 2009|08:30pm] |
dating sucks.
being alone sucks.
not getting a travel fellowship sucks.
monday is full of dreary thoughts.
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| 475 |
[12 Nov 2009|09:46pm] |
my organic peanut butter smells like feet after sitting out for a day.
gross.
also, living is pretty damn tiring.
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| 474 |
[07 Nov 2009|03:55pm] |
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you don't do it on purpose but you make me shake.
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| 473 |
[07 Nov 2009|12:37am] |
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oh the wasted possibilities.
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| 472 |
[05 Nov 2009|03:43am] |
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you're just another notch on my bedpost.
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| 471 |
[02 Nov 2009|12:51am] |
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i want to taste winter on your breath.
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| 470 |
[31 Oct 2009|02:00pm] |
my hipbones are showing again...
and my collarbones are more pronounced.
yes.
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| 469 |
[27 Oct 2009|02:46am] |
wow, it's been a long time brand new.
rediscovering old favorites is quite a nice feeling.
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| 468 |
[22 Oct 2009|06:00am] |
why do i have to do this to myself....
this is incredibly frustrating and i hate it.
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| 467 |
[20 Oct 2009|09:23pm] |
sometimes it's so easy to fall back into an old habit.
i want to feel good about myself.
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| 466 |
[20 Oct 2009|02:01am] |
apparently there are things that i'm good for:
-sex
-makeout sessions
-early morning philosophical debates
but apparently, i am not the kind of girl you fall in love with.
how depressing.
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| 465 |
[07 Sep 2009|08:16am] |
i want to feel like i'm alive.
but all i am is half-awake with senses dulled.
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| 464 |
[31 Aug 2009|11:54pm] |
there go again, with my heart on my sleeve.
i'm such an idiot.
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